The Mission

 

12 May 2020 / 18 Iyar 5780 / 34th Day of the Omer

I first gave my life to the LORD Jesus Christ, in November 1979; and Today is the 27th Anniversary of when I made another major commitment to God. I made a vow to serve the LORD no matter where He may lead, and the following journal entry establishes my devotion to Almighty God and my sincere desire to fulfill the call that He has placed upon my life!

Excerpt from “Walking With the Enemy: A Testimony,” by C. Read

Wednesday / 12 May 1993

Dearest LORD God Almighty,

I found out from [Candy’s former husband] yesterday that he got a court date. I am so excited at the thought of having the opportunity to stand before people and speak Your word.

I know that time the Bible study group got called before [the] courtroom, I was a nervous wreck. I bet Ira must have been going nuts inside, hoping that I would contain myself. She seemed so calm and cool, along with Candy.

I really had a very hard time that day. That was the first time I ever snapped at her and Candy, and I ran out of the room crying. They came back to my room to comfort me, and were able to calm me down, but I know the reason I was so crazy is because I knew in my heart that there were many things in my life that I would be so ashamed of if I had to speak of them in public.

But Lord, those same things are in my past, and You have cleansed me of the unrighteousness that I was walking in, and now I can speak without being ashamed before You. I still feel a sense of shame at what I allowed myself to be a partaker of, and I have reaped what I have sown, but I see the truth now, where before I was walking with the enemy in deception.

I praise You, and I am ever thankful to You for coming down by Your mighty power to show the truth; and You did that during Bible study on the night of 28 February 1993. That date is a day I’ll never ever forget!

You released the chains that bound me! You gave sight to my eyes! You unstopped my ears! And You released the power that darkness had over me! Praise the Mighty Name of my LORD and Savior Jesus Christ, the anointed one!

And now I can walk around with an ability, because of You, to see exactly what’s in front of me. And I will take each day as it comes, and not be concerned about what’s up ahead, because I trust You completely!

You are a light unto my path! Thank You for the understanding that You have given me, and the wisdom to apply what I know about You. I am still trying to learn how to be quick to listen and slow to speak. I truly want to guard what comes out of my mouth.

I now understand the verse that says, “Don’t cast your pearls before swine because they will trample them under their feet and turn around and tear you to pieces.” But praise God, You are able to heal my wounds.

They most certainly did exactly what You said in Your word that they would do, but the thing I was mistaken about was: I thought they served You. I thought they loved You. I thought they loved me.

But You shed Your glorious light on the situation because of Your love for me and the whole world. I say the world because I do realize the calling You have placed on my life from birth. And Father God, I accept that calling with no reservations whatsoever. I will forsake all to follow You and You alone.

And I know there are many people that won’t understand. There are many people that will say bad things about me. There are many people that will hate me and lie about me. And even give false testimony about me.

But you know what? Even if they try to imprison me for doing nothing wrong, I will count it a joy to suffer shame and disgrace for the mighty name of Jesus my Lord! I fully accept the commission that You have called me to.

A servant of the most high God! And the Jesus who came and died for me that I might have life forever with the Father, Creator of all things. Praise the LORD God Jehovah!

Signed on this 12th Day of May, in the year of our Lord,

One Thousand Nine Hundred and Ninety-Three.